Love Lost
July 7, 2008So why is it that I can’t get him out of my head? He was only a part of my life for 2 months. Crazy but in that short period of time I really fell in love with him. I’m trying to forget him but I can’t. I’m trying to remember him in ways that don’t hurt my heart but I can’t. I’ve burned pictures; I’ve reminisced; I’ve looked at pictures; I’ve prayed to get over him. It’s been 2 months since I last saw him…same amount of time that he was in my life but it hurts so much still.
Why is it my heart won’t let go? I’ve moved on with my life. I’m going on big adventures. But driving in the car by myself a song, a sign, almost anything will bring him in my thoughts.
After taking every detour
Getting lost and losing track
So that even if I wanted
I could not find my way back
After driving out the memory
Of the way things might have been
After I’d forgotten all about us
The song remembers when
But that’s just a lot of water
Underneath a bridge I burned
And there’s no use in backtracking
Around corners I have turned
Still I guess some things we bury
Are just bound to rise again
For even if the whole world has forgotten
The song remembers when
God please help me forget him…and help me forgive myself for thinking of him as much as I do. And please help my heart heal so I can love again the way I deserve to love…and the way my future man deserves to be loved. Or perhaps I’m destined to be alone, and not be loved by somebody. That’s always a possibility. But God please show me the way. I know you know what’s best for me but please give me signs to help me get there.
I’ve done some bad things in the past I know but who hasn’t? I’ve not done anything evil, nor have I hurt anybody but myself. Maybe in a past life I’ve done something really horrible and don’t deserve to be loved. But there are days I long for it. Please God, help me.
Why does Love hurt?
Why does the individual one loves dearly goes with someone else?
Is it written somewhere that Love is pain?
Two months WOW.. what could this guy have possibly done to reach your heart that way?
Not to say it can’t happen.
To tell you the truth after reading a few of your earlier blogs it seems to me that these guys have the emotional issues not you.
Maybe these guys could not handle the love you wanted to give them. Better to find out sooner then later.
It is said there is allways someone out there, it’s just finding them that is hard.
Try not to find the one you want, remember only a few will share your heart, yet only one can have it.
Try not to give your heart, shared it first.
Good Luck
Only just found your blog – love its name by the way – and I had to chuckle when you talked about the vicious circle of looking and not looking for a relationship. How I agree that one can’t seem to win whatever one does! If you’re a bit needy inside (and aren’t we all?) maybe that’s somehow communicating itself on a subconscious level and keeping the right sort of people away. You need to give yourself time to heal emotionally.
Hi! I was surfing and found your blog post… nice! I love your blog.
Cheers! Sandra. R.