Lost

Well I haven’t written on here in quite some time.  Why?  Because I have no internet connection in my new house.  Still.  It’s been 2 months.  My ‘cable-ready’ house is not at all ready.  My AC broke before I moved in.  It broke again last night.  I called Comcast to see what’s going on with my cable and phone and internet…they went out today and still can’t find anything.  They said the next time they can get out is on 8/18…which is 16 days from today.  Are we kidding?!?

Not to mention the tacks on the stairs that prick your feet as you walk up, the laundry room door won’t close and the vent for the dryer that leads to outside wasn’t done properly and could start a fire when I do my laundry.  GEEZ!

So needless to say my new house buying experience has NOT been a good one.  I’m frustrated all the time.  And dealing with that when I get in after work sucks…especially since work is terrible.  After knowing I would be transfering since May 1…they STILL have not found me a desk.  They’ve known for basically 3 months and I have no desk.  Nor have I had any training.  I’m just winging it over here hoping I don’t get anything wrong.  I feel so lost.

Lost.  That’s the perfect word for my feelings right now.  Lost.  If you’ve seen the movie “Lilo & Stitch” you’ll understand.  That moment Stitch is alone at night and says “lost.”  That’s me right now.

If it weren’t for the incredible support I have from my parents I don’t think I would have made it this far.  I had a complete breakdown last night.  Tears flowing.  I had my dog with me and hugged her.  But my parents have taken her for a couple weeks so I can get everything settled without the worry of her getting out or getting hurt during this process.  It’ll be so much more lonely than I’ve been but it’s best to have her safe and that worry off my plate.

So I’ve moved from San Jose to Roseville.  Do you know the way to San Jose?  Yes I do!  And I want to run back so quickly!  I’m lost in Roseville.  I’m totally regretting this move.  Maybe things will settle soon and things will get fixed.  I really don’t have much patience.  And I don’t know how much more I can take.

I’m just so…..LOST.